Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Compulsion

It’s been a while since my last post. I have an excuse, but I don’t want to take time making excuses. Truth is, I haven’t much to say right now about the subject of wine. In fact, I haven’t much to say about anything these days. That’s part of my excuse.

Still, almost without fail, at least once each day, the thought of me ignoring vinofictions crept into my mind. It bothered me almost the way a nagging control freak bothers us.

For days, thoughts of finally abandoning this blog for good gave me guilt feelings. The idea that I could walk away from something that I had created made me feel almost ill. This deep sense of responsibility has always haunted my psyche. Every dog or cat I have ever had as a pet figured that out about me and used that knowledge to mold my habits to suit their needs.

For the past three days, the compulsion to write in vinofictions tugged at my sense of responsibility until, today, I could no longer take it, and so I decided to write something, anything, to get this drag on my day to ease up.

Many years ago, I learned that the best way to face writer’s block was a combination of keep writing and keep taking breaks. It’s a contradiction, but it often works. You spend time each day, the same time of day, too, writing whatever pops into your feeble mind until, “voila,” you often find that you have begun to write something if not important at least intelligible. After each session, you do something that you truly enjoy doing—walking, running, biking, shopping, dining out, meeting friends, etc.

With that in mind, and noticing that I have yet to come up with anything either important or intelligible, I think I will go do something that I enjoy, expecting that tomorrow I’ll come up with a real vinofictions entry.

Oh wait: I have to drive over an hour one way for my daily radiation treatment.

Now you know my excuse for having not been writing in the blog.


Copyright Thomas Pellechia
March 2011. All rights reserved.

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7 comments:

  1. Absolute best (as in real) reason I have ever heard. Thanks for posting from time to time...giving me something to read and chew on as it were, and letting me know how you are doing.

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  2. Yeah, sometimes the truth is the only answer to the question...

    Seems that i am going through some sort of introspection period.

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  3. Hi Tom

    Hope you are feeling well.

    That is all.

    Call if you want to chat.

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  4. Malene and I hope you are doing fine. I am sure that your walk every morning give you some inspiration or maybe preparing the green house for the season.

    Best regards

    Henrik

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  5. Thanks all.

    It will come back to me--always does.

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  6. The Thought-Fox
    I imagine this midnight moment's forest:
    Something else is alive
    Beside the clock's loneliness
    And this blank page where my fingers move.

    Through the window I see no star:
    Something more near
    Though deeper within darkness
    Is entering the loneliness:

    Cold, delicately as the dark snow
    A fox's nose touches twig, leaf;
    Two eyes serve a movement, that now
    And again now, and now, and now

    Sets neat prints into the snow
    Between trees, and warily a lame
    Shadow lags by stump and in hollow
    Of a body that is bold to come

    Across clearings, an eye,
    A widening deepening greenness,
    Brilliantly, concentratedly,
    Coming about its own business

    Till, with a sudden sharp hot stink of fox
    It enters the dark hole of the head.
    The window is starless still; the clock ticks,
    The page is printed.

    Ted Hughes

    I studied this poem as an 18 year old, and it has stayed with me ever since.
    I'm not a writer, but you are...you and Mr. Hughes understand these things...keep blogging.

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  7. Beautiful, Vinogirl. Thank you.

    One day, I should let you read one or two of my poems.

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